Bittersweet - J. Rumi

In my Hallucination
I saw my Beloved’s flower garden

In my vertigo
In my dizziness
In my drunken haze
whirling and dancing
like a spinning wheel
I saw myself
as the source of existence

I was there in the beginning
and I was the spirit of love

Now I am sober
There is only the hangover
and the memory of love
And only the sorrow

I yearn for happiness
I ask for help
I want mercy

And my love says

Look at me and hear me
because I am here just for that

I am your moon
and your moonlight too
I am your flower garden
and your water too

I have come all this way
eager for you
without shoes or shawl

I want to laugh
to kill all your worries
to love you
to nourish you

Oh Sweet Bitterness!
I will soothe you and heal you
I will bring you roses
I too have been covered with thorns